A DREAM DEFERRED...
05.16.11
I'm a girl with a TON of dreams.
A TON!!!
When it's all said and done I would like to proudly own the titles of wife, mommy, entrepreneur, photographer, designer, author, speaker and the best friend you'll ever have.
Like I said, it's a LOT! But that's what I dream of.
I started this blog right after having my Big Lil' guy two years ago. I was dreaming of an amazing journey through photographs. Along the way I have been attempting to discover my strengths and taking the magnifying glass off of my weaknesses and yet my weaknesses are all that I seem to see these days. It's like they are all listed in no particular order on every billboard from north to south of I-95. I had no idea that becoming a mommy would cause me to seriously question who the heck I even am anymore. I find myself frustrated often and I am just starting to realize that reducing my expectations might just be the BEST thing I could do for myself at this time in my life. Two years ago I had big dreams of starting and running an amazing photography business. I had a passion that was undeniable and a hunger to just simply Make Things Happen. Now, two years later, I still have that same passion and I would even say that same hunger but it's kinda like it is all compressed into a zip file I think! Lately, I have been re-evaluating my business, my goals, and my projects to establish more realistic targets to hit. Establishing boundaries and shaking up the rules a bit to make all of my dreams still accessible seems to be the best way to keep this train a-chuggin'.
I want to be the Best Mom Ever, the Best Wife Eva, the Best Friend Evu, the Best Business Woman Ever! But the journey and the process of exactly how to make that happen is some kind of an emotional hot mess to me.
Is there even a balance?
And, lastly, in an effort not to sound too totally whiny and pitiful here is a pic to remind me that this not-so-flippin'-desirable process is SOOOO worth it!!!
Becoming a mommy has single-handedly fueled my dreams and set me back a bit all at the same time. I guess I could compare my rate of growth and success to others around me and be disappointed that I'm not where I thought I would be but instead I choose to be grateful for the new path that it is leading me on. I am excited about the direction that my photography is taking me and super grateful for the creative mind that God has given me.
XoXo,
Syreena
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These two are too precious and this post and your work is beautiful! A dream deferred isn't a dream lost. You're not alone, I think we all have these feelings at times. One day at a time. :-)